I don’t claim to be an expert on much, but this I know to be true: I am an expert self-doubter. Like many do in January, I began thinking about the new year and all I wanted it to hold. And as I put pen to paper, I began wondering why I even bother.
So I started writing and writing and listing and laughing and before long, pages were filled and I felt overwhelmed by all I accomplished in 2013. I learned, I grew, I stretched, and I conquered. I attempted really hard stuff, really scary stuff. I had butterflies a lot. I had those moments when I wondered what I’d gotten myself into and I’d suddenly be talking to myself out loud. Why had I said, “yes”?
But here’s the amazing thing: none of these chances ended in disaster. Not ONE (well unless you count my first wedding shoot when my skirt ripped out…) And, good grief, I accomplished all these things on my list while being a mother, wife, friend, teacher, sister, neighbor… I suddenly had to stop and give myself a little credit, because credit was due. Big Time.
My second list of goals for this year didn’t look much different from the list I’d started and tossed. But as I read over the page, they didn’t seem improbable or even doomed to disaster. In the reflection of my gratefuls, I looked at myself differently. I stood taller, felt braver, and more hopeful. I’m taking chances, and it feels good.
So thankful for my people, my home, my God. I’m blessed with this crazy fan club of friends who consistently cheer me on, push and encourage, bring me chocolate and coffee. They believe in me and pour into my life.
So if next January I sit down and all my worst case scenarios happened, nothing was accomplished, I’m confident I’ll still have hands to hold and a soft place to land.
Here’s to a wonderful and exciting new year.
Inspired and challenged by Hailey Bartholomew of You Can’t Be Serious (www.youcantbeserious.com.au), I’m delighted to share my latest showreel. This project was chosen by Hailey as the winning entry of her last contest and I was honored to speak with her via Skype. She is an incredibly talented and generous artist…and I think I might possibly her biggest fan.
HOW DO YOU SAVE HAPPY?
Beautiful couple. They were so much fun to be with… relaxed and full of laughter, incredibly in love.
They glowed with happiness! Honestly, so romantic!
Congratulations you two. So delighted you found one another and your big day is just around the corner.